Hello. I know I have not posted in a while but I have so much feelings bottled up in me. I just can't keep it in anymore. It's silently killing me and I can't take it anymore. :( Is it even possible to have to much, so much feelings for a person that you can't even take your him of him for a second? This is currently happening to me right now. I tried to let it go but I can't seem to do it. I don't have the courage to even approach him sometimes. It's not like I can control my feelings, anyway. How I wish everything will work out smoothly so I wouldn't have to worry so much. Why I do care anyway? Does he care? Do you feel the same? What am I in your eyes? If only these questions will be answered, so I wouldn't have to keep my hopes up high everytime and end up getting disappointed. It hurts me to the core. I really, really, really like you a lot. Feelings are so weird. I can't do this anymore. I can't get anything done properly. I need to get my way back to find my old self. I can't just  let this destroy me slowly. Sometimes, we just have to take the chances that we have before it goes away. I hope things will work out soon...and I hope you will maybe talk to me more. Should I just forget about it?


'If it's meant to be, it will be.' 

Who lives by that quote anyway?



Signing off,
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